liar liar pants on fire;

sooo. its been a while since ive been on this thing i feel like blogging for some reason idk why. well schools been a hard ass i should be studying for history right now but i have too much on my mind. i neeeedd to catch up on chem but my teachers a bizzop. well this weekend i had fun fun fun ! my horoscope said i should get out on friday and saturday so i did it and be productive on sunday so i did that lol. well im done with guys, its so stupid everyone of them are just manipulaters. i hope you find someone that could fit with you cause apparently you have no clue how much you meant to me! i kept coming back and back but there was nothing given in return. i let you step on me and play me like the fool i am. curse this world ! so i dont know but i feel like some quesy feeling is eating me up! like this one person just won tell me i mean i saw you guys together just tell me ! i have no grudge against you its easier for me to let go if you just say so -__- i hate how im so nice i hate how i give in i hate how i blow everything off for just one little thing. you guys use me you deserve eachother i hope you live a happy life cause i know i will. and its not gonna have anything to do with you ! i should start fresh yeaahh.

" its time to find me a new beginning that gives me a happy ending"

;help me

Somebody help me! Seriously i hope i make it through tennis i am dieing right now. I've gotten a little use to the conditioning but im no where near fit yet. I hope ill make it through really badly and not slow anyone down. Darn legs always give up on me ): im tired and sometimes i am unaware of my surroundings. Some days i just want to call it quit but my will power keeps me going. I always feel natious before practice. Its gets to me ya know. Oh well, lets just hope i make it till the end.So today im going to the mall w/ dianna wooh ! and i gots to get lay something hahaha. This is the one time ill probably wish this...



I hope summer goes by quick!

;tired

oh man. im pooped. sooo tired. these few weeks have been a hassle. i have so many things to do yet so little time i keep dozing off too. i feel like im packed with a million things to do and only one minute to get them done. ooohh boy im suppose to be finishing the rest of my homework right now but im too lazy ): OH and i have to finish my book about 300 more pages to go yayy! -_- and stupid carrolls making us do a dumb essay! AGHH why do they pack everything for the end i just want a relaxing week ):



i hate how you pressure me.

;agrivated

YOU ARE SUCH A CUTIE.
At first it seemed like nothing, no worries, i got this.
Then the locker & pool incidents.
It could just be a coincident, i'd like to think not.
I didn't realize it but soon enough my eyes started to follow.
I kept watching & watching.
Your reactions play over & over in my mind.
But how come you haven't been around lately.
I'm getting impatient waiting for that one meeting...

Don't toy with it's fragilness.

;epoch

I hate over thinking.
It seems like you have interest but I'd doubt.
Sucks cause i know I'm being used.
You and the others are the same.
For...get...it.



I'm gaining ):

infuriated;

OH MAN, FUCK MY LIFE. I hate this hell hole. I hate my brother i hope he freakin gets screwed over. My mother was being stupid.-__- I was fighting with david because he was being an ass and then all of a sudden she gives a lecture or "insight" on bad and good people dieing. Like what the fuck huh. UGHH i want to scream i am so enraged. I wish i would just slap my brother already but i dont want to get hit by my mother. I think i'll go on a training where i endure pain so when she hits me i won't feel anything and just stare at her so she'll finally realize SHE'S THE ONE WRONG. Life is unfair. You know what i hate the most when i open my space up and let someone in they fuck it up. For example i am nice and talk to my madre because i think she's lonely BUT she screws me over and says something dumb so i close my space up again. It makes me feel good when i stay in my room BY MY SELF after a shower and just go on the laptop and do whatever i want. I WANT TO DRIVE. I can be independent the one reason i want to drive the most is because i want my own freedom and NO i will NOT drive david that mother fucker can walk for all i care. Stupid bitch. AHHHHH! I HATE HIMMM. For one thing he thinks he so cool. WHATEVER, he has no friends and no life. On the weekends he hangs out with his cousins -_- NO FRIENDS. He talks back to me one day when he pisses me off really bad yes i know i always say this but when he makes me so mad and i cry mad tears i will slap him and say you dont have teh status to talk this way with me. and then walk away and give him the silence treatment for a longggggg time. He is so dumb too he says gosh don't yell at me when he is the on who raises his voice first ! WTH and he wastes so much electricity and everything i wish we would just make a dog house for him and make hi sleep outside in it -__- OH and i am very irritated with S she is making me mad why does this always happen i think i will stop talking to her for a little. YES, that is my plan. okay well i've expressed enough.

why is it always the good ones who get screwed over.

Ayer;

Okay, today was supperb! I had a good time s.l.i.c.k was in the hizz housee with the addition of annoying D and S -___-. So we went to buy food and there wasn't enough room in the car so little me got stuck in the trunk. I could've sworn i was suffocating. After, we went to rent movies Ghost Rider, The Midnight Meat Train, and some Indian Movie. The Indian movie was hella good. Meat Train was sick there was too much blood. We didn't even get to watch Ghost Rider. I screamed at a part in Meat Train and everyone else did too because of me lol. So S left first then K. K was kinda pissin me off. So the rest of us played games and C left. I was bored so i got cleaned up and went on the comp. OH MAN my cousin S slept over they are super annoying i want to strangle them. Coming into my room and annoying me ACK ! I will kill them seriously it was super annoying and now they are outside at one in the morning cooking my mom is even annoyed she's trying to sleep for heavens sake ! i hope they get in trouble in the morning. Dude they keep using and touching my stuff i seriously am pissed. One more thing and i will slap him FOR SURE. Dude using my quesadia roll, my soda, my restroom, wearing my things, and what makes it even worse is that they are being super loud. I wish my mom would go out slap D, tell him to shut the fuck up, and go back in her room so he knows. Fucking annoying and now tomorrow i have a bunch of dishes to wash because of them and GUESS WHAT they are soooo annoying stupid bitches who the fuck uses a fucking garlic grinder for cheese i want to slap all of them i really do. UGH, so annoying ruins my whole day. SOO im going to them mall on fridayy yayy ! I want the tang top soo badly so on monday i'll wear it to school and look soo cute (; okay i'm done for the day adios amigos!

I don't have enough patience to last for oh so long.